Purpose In This Life

Do you know your purpose in this life? Do you know why I say this life? It isn't because I believe we have other lives, like some who think we have many other lives and are different people and/or animals. I am talking about life here on earth and the afterlife. You either spend that eternally in Heaven with Christ or in eternal damnation. Since I know my future is secure in Christ I don't have to wonder about that part of my life. But we all have some huge choices to make about this life here on Earth. My husband and I have been doing some major seeking of His will for our lives in the desire to live for His glory while here. That is easier said that done sometimes. For one, life on a sinful earth can really get to you and Satan can use everyday life to drag you down. He works very hard to distract you from your purpose.

We have felt drawn to Colorado for the last five years (as if by the name of my blog isn't a dead giveaway to that). And while we still feel that it is drawing closer to becoming a reality, we still have time to wait upon the Lord. It felt like it was going to be sooner than later for a little while but the Lord was silent so it is not time. I am afraid I felt like a disgruntled teenager over it. I wanted to know everything right now and wanted it to happen NOW!

My sweet husband has been telling me that we have to be faithful in the ministries He has given us before He will in trust us with more. While I understood that to be true and wanted to put that belief into action, my focus was not on the here and now and all that He has in trusted in me. It was on what I saw as a future in Colorado. On what ministries He could have for us there. And deep down I knew that for a long time and fought it. I missed out of the full measure of His joy as I served Him by not doing it with all of my heart.

As I spent time with the Lord last night, He brought me to the realization of what I had been doing. He has been trying to tell me for some time and I would push it aside. Last night, I fell down before Him and cried for forgiveness of that great sin in my heart. I went to bed last night with renewed joy of service for Him! As we went to the apartments this afternoon I saw it with new eyes and a joy filled my heart that only He can give.

Do I still long for Colorado? Yes and no. Yes, I love going there and I would love to move there. But if God never moves us there will I still love and serve the Lord where ever He calls me? I sure will! No, I am not dwelling on moving anymore. I am not going to live my life for tomorrow. I am going to live each day serving the Lord to the best of my ability and planning great things for the ministries He has given me here. Will I still make ready for a call from the Lord? Yes! I will continue to clean out our home of clutter and things we do not need. I will continue to prepare my heart to hear the Lord's call to go and serve, either here, there or where ever God calls us to go. Yes, anywhere! Where He leads, I will go.

God has blessed our family so much. He gave us a relationship that is strong in Him. Yes, we have our ups and downs. But our love for the Lord binds us together. He has blessed us with four wonderful kids who are unique in their own ways. Yes, we have problems like other families and some issues that other families probably don't have. But God sees us through those, as well. He has blessed us with a nice house and nice things. All of our needs are met and many of our wants are, too. We are trying to remind our teenager to be grateful for the things we have instead of wanting more all the time. It is a lesson that the Lord has taught me through that. I was wanting more by being focused on Colorado and when we would move. I am now focused on what God has given me here and now....so much, He has given me so much. Thank You, Lord!